“I Was a Soldier”: Psychiatric Patient’s Letter to Jesus

This shattering note, in which a mental patient alludes to herself as being confined in a Nazi concentration camp, was recovered from the estate of a doctor who practiced at Willard Psychiatric Hospital, in Willard, NY. In its half-coherent, broken language, it poignantly expresses the crushing, all-pervasive hopelessness and regret of a mental health inmate confronting her mortality:
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“Dear Jesus,I am sorry I cannot help you. I tried to spread my grace because of the Britian Prophescy and the German Prophescy Due to cutterage of the Head, Heart, stomach and Reproductive Organs. I am no longer going to be living. I tried as a prophet and person. I don’t even want to be an animal. For what a person does to an animal. I wish to stay in my grave. And not rise again from the Grave.

I have seen too much to life. Now I am blind and deaf. And have lost my feeling too.

I am not Jewish but was put in a Nazi Concentration Camp. And haven’t been released. And I have sinned too. But the Master-Mind won’t let me forget it.

And I have losted my Christianity because of herorhim. – Master Mind

I have been married several times and lost every child. I am sad for my family and me.

I appreciate what you have done for me. I don’t ask for much. I earn my own. And give to the poor and church.

Thank you Lord.
I was a soldier.

Thank You.

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  • timeisonmyhip

    This struck a chord with me.

  • timeisonmyhip

    This struck a chord with me.

  • MorphedKirbY

    I don’t think she was put in Nazi camp. Must have gotten invite to the camp david expansion beta.

  • MorphedKirbY

    I don’t think she was put in Nazi camp. Must have gotten invite to the camp david expansion beta.

  • justagirl

    are you just assuming that this person is a female?

    • Haystack

      No, there’s a woman’s name written in pencil just above “Dear Jesus.” I’m thinking that’s the doctor noting down the name of the patient.

      • justagirl

        assumption.

        • Haystack

          Reasoning.

          • justagirl

            naivety.

          • Haystack

            Educated guessing!

            *covers his ears and chants ‘na na na can’t hear you na na na’*

  • justagirl

    are you just assuming that this person is a female?

  • Haystack

    No, there’s a woman’s name written in pencil just above “Dear Jesus.” I’m thinking that’s the doctor noting down the name of the patient.

  • justagirl

    assumption.

  • Namelesswon

    and your point is?

    • Haystack

      I wasn’t trying to make one; just sharing what I found.

  • Namelesswon

    and your point is?

  • Haystack

    Reasoning.

  • justagirl

    naivety.

  • Haystack

    I wasn’t trying to make one; just sharing what I found.

  • Haystack

    Educated guessing!

    *covers his ears and chants ‘na na na can’t hear you na na na’*

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