“They” Told Me to Write This

Who are “they”? Good question. Grey Aliens? Beings from the Sirius star system? Harvey the white rabbit? Fuck if I know. They appear to refract differently through the nervous system of everyone who comes into contact with them. I actually started referring to them as hynagogic light entities after they started showing up in my peripheral sleep states. The whole scene started crackling right after I began performing magick. I summoned them and they came, rebuilding the structure of my soul on a near nightly basis—which often felt like computer updates being rapidly downloaded into my psyche. Seriously, that’s how it went down from my perspective, I started doing magick and they started installing the sorcerer software pack into the very fiber of my being.

This went on for months before they finally finished. They showed me what they’d been working on and of course I didn’t understand it even remotely, but they seemed quite proud of themselves. Errrr, I guess it’s some kind of telepathic link to the 5th dimensional (they’ve told me 4th dimensional doesn’t quite cut it) realm where they exist or something. Sort of like a translation program that converts telepathy into simplified English I can understand. Long story but what’s important is that they started chatting me up shortly thereafter and educating me as to the nature of the macro-consciousness. They talk to me a lot, and a lot of the time I just sort of filter it out because I have no idea what to do with the constant deluge of information.

This time was different. The day after my first occult post on Disinfo regarding my hyper-weird sexual encounters with spirits, I was lying in bed thinking about what bizarro psychic chicanery I could tackle next. I had a billion ideas like I always do, but drifted off to sleep not intently deciding on any of them. The next thing I know I’m half awake lying face down on my pillow with an amorphous being of echoing spirit energy hovering just to my right. Before I have much time to contemplate the strangeness of the situation, the thing detaches a sinewy tendril from itself and reaches directly into my mind. The second it does, my entire field of perception is flooded with instant rush pleasurable re-assurances and an even more instantaneous message. Those things we were educating you about right before you started keeping that dream journal/magick diary (friend me on facebook, gets more peculiar by the day), write about those. Okay then.

Lesson plan number 1: Thought does not arise from matter, matter is comprised from thought.

Another way of putting it would be: “Life is but a dream and we’re the imagination of ourselves” (Bill Hicks style)

Or another way of putting it would be: “The soul is not in the body, the body is inside the soul. Do you understand? Try to remember.” (Grant Morrision Invisibles style).

Doesn’t matter how you phrase it the song remains the same, and it’s one they’ve flooded into me over and over and over again in the 7 years since I became a practicing occultist. Might seem a bit trite, but there’s some supreme wisdom going on there. We’re not things, we’re thoughts. It’s the reason magick works. Projecting a sigil or casting a spell might seem particularly nutty for those looking at the world from a scientific materialist perspective. How could inner gestures have an influence on external reality? The problem lies in the limitations of that particular cosmology. When you look at it from a more shamanic perspective, it’s quite deliciously logical. All consciousness is basically a dream and we’re all connected, so hacking into the cosmic grid and fucking with the known parameters can absolutely have an effect on external reality. It’s like throwing cheat codes into a video game in a way, but a little stranger, because it’s like a video game character requesting that the people playing the game throw the cheat codes into the game from the inside. I think I could basically sum up the occult in a simple metaphor. Imagine a marionette. That’s you. Imagine the strings, that’s the connective tissue of the universe (what Christians call the Holy Spirit). Who’s pulling the strings, well that’s the real question we’re trying to get at with all of this, isn’t it? Tough to wrap your head around? Yeah, basically impossible when you grow up in westernized society, but try we must. It should be noted that when lost in a dream, it’s almost impossible to properly contemplate your waking existence. Most of the time a vague memory is the best you can conjure and none of it ever adds up.

Now, they’ve told me this stuff over and over, which again makes good sense. If you were say, an eternal being that existed outside the human time stream, how would you get through to those tiny insects ensnared by its grasp? You’d probably talk at one constant rhythm, at one constant pitch, over and over so it’d sink into their preternaturally dense little heads. This kept coming through repeatedly in the hypnagogic state for an entire week in December. But there was a slight tweak this go-round which differentiated it from similar, prior transmissions—an implication to me that it was intended for those of the more scientifically minded ilk. It might not seem this way, but due to the imaginal nature of our shared illusion, anything is possible. There are solutions to any potential mathematical or scientific quandary you might ever encounter. Got that? Cool, time to move on.

Lesson plan number 2: All time is happening at once.

Huh? When I accidentally summoned my Holy Guardian Angel back in 2010 (I’m sure you’ll hear about this more in future posts), it projected a vision into my spirit telepathically about the nature of time. These 5th dimensional beings exist outside of it. In the vision, I was shown how my Holy Guardian Bad Self (whatever the fuck I am) lives outside of all human reality, which sort of looked like a glowing white planet from its perspective, a singular entity (we’re all one, dude). Mind-bending, but not too hard to come to terms with. It just contradicts everything we’re taught to understand about reality. It’s why when anyone tells me we’re being occupied by aliens, I just kind of laugh. Yeah, not from outer space kids, from OUTSIDE OF TIME. Totally different shit.

They’ve told me this stuff before, but this time they were analyzing the singular white planet looking entity selectively with a particular message. It’s all happening at once. So whereas to us, time feels linear and things seem to happen sequentially, one after another, that’s not the way it looks through their eyes at all. It looks like one thing, one entity comprised from all of us. To them, we’re a developing child. Our right arm is the past and our left arm is the future. It’s all going on simultaneously. In The Invisibles (based on experiences just such as these) UFO’s were referred to as “white blood cells” and maybe that’s not a terrible metaphor. They’re hovering around us, fucking with our DNA, re-programming our spiritual infrastructure as a means of fighting a cosmic virus which threatens the collective health of the time stream. They can do anything. When things are about to go wrong, they fix it. How is this possible? Refer to lesson plan number 1. You think I truly get it? Riiiiiiiiight. Which brings me to another thing they told me a while back. “We know this is basically impossible for you to understand, but we reward everyone who tries.” Got that true believers? It’s what I/they wanted me/them to tell you/me. Transdimenional psychology 101.

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  • saint_al

    I’m guessing you did enough esoteric reading to know this madness and confusion was a distinct possibility, though I won’t question the reality of your situation. You may need a break from your practice, get realigned with 3D nature; a vacation as it were.

    • Thad McKraken

      Wrong, but good call. I had no intentions of pursuing magick. A spirit showed up in my room one day and unconsciously compelled me to do so. This is the kind of shit that happens. As for the vacation. That’d be the Robert Anton Wilson way of looking at it. Another way of looking at it would be the R.A.W. was a shitty occultist (abandoned the practice and died a rationalist). Should Grant have stopped after his “abduction”? If he did, we wouldn’t have the Invisibles. Should be mentioned that I read the Invisibles after I started doing magick, not the other way around. Same deal with Alan Moore. Never read his stuff until after I was already a practitioner. I had been screwing around with astral projection for years though.

  • Orange peanut

    Reality is Arbitrary. I see greys sometimes in hypnagogic states, if you are properly tuned, even closing your eyes can show you what else is around. But its all arbitrary, sometimes you need something out of this world to tell you things extra ordinary about yourself and reality, and your subconscious dishes whatever it thinks its effective, since we are all 1. Its like reading between the lines.

  • Gabriel D. Roberts

    Leaves a neophyte like myself jealous for the experience, though the magick is coming my way and has been priming me for over a year. Thanks for this post, Thad!

    • Thad McKraken

      I could teach you some things.

      • Orange peanut

        Boy you sure are cocky. Drop the ego and stop saying I, I,I,I. I’ve read stuff like this in Sirius Rising, one of the first books on the Occult i’ve ever read. You are just regurgitating again. Just because you read a bunch of occult journals does not mean you have the understanding. How does it feel trying to be crowley but falling short? I’ve seen people that never heard of the occult and casting a sigil for the first time making things happen. 7 years is not that long. Once you sleep on top of a book and wake up with it being memorized, like Edgar Cayce, the sleeping prophet , I’ll call you an occultist. For now you are just a wanna be with a fertile imagination, regurgitating initiations hoping to impress the simple minded.. You are not a unique and special snow flake. You music is pretty bad too, its not really bizarre and magickal. Just more cheesy butt rock. You should get out more, seems like you are having an early mid life crisis. You are no guru, don’t act like you can teach anything. God I hate blow hards, who do not test occult methods before believing in them, its also a science. You should go into advertisement, we dont need anymore pot head cheesy wanna be magicians. Once you mess with things you dont understand, you risk suffering from superstitions. Time is linear here because the future is not made yet, magick gives you the tools to create a future of your own making, not for talking to lame midget aliens that are creations of the magicians of the past, and taking down their notes like some slave. Understand this world first before jumping into the unknown. They also told me to write this, so you can check yourself and misrepresent them. Truth is arbitrary in the mystical realm. The grey’s complain to me about time because they are in charge of keeping it going for minimum wage, but in their defense, make some killer cocktails. Create something new and you wont need to smoke pot to aid in meditation, dopamine and cannabinoids would just get released naturally. You are like the lance armstrong of occult literature. You are what you seek, always have been.

        • vxc

          yes. yesssss. let the butturt flow through you. muahahahaha. lolol.

        • Thad McKraken

          Don’t like Crowley, never have. Don’t know how someone could study spirituality and never grasp the concept of karma. Everything Crowley did reeks of trust fund brat (which he was). People talk about him waaaaaay tooo much. I honestly wouldn’t recommend reading him to anyone, I’d recommend reading Robert Anton Wilson’s interpretations of his work as R.A.W. had a true talent for explaining that stuff. Just re-read a Crowley book. Completely worthless to me. Way more influenced by Morrison and Moore. Thanks for your critique of music though. What kind of stuff do you like might I ask?

          Also, I agree with the ego stuff. You call it ego, I call it swagger. What am I supposed to pretend I don’t talk to spirits? You know what the primary message I’ve received from the universe over the years has been: You are a fuck up. Get your shit together and we can maybe help you out. Trust me when I say I am very early in my development. Divine conversation with your Holy Guardian Angel – done. Next step is Communion with your Holy Guardian Angel i.e. abduction. Can’t do it yet and don’t know if I will before I die. Too freaky and the fear impulse kicks in every time.

          • lazy_friend

            Upright Eight of Swords Tarot Card Meanings

            The Eight of Swords reflects that you feel trapped by your own thoughts and perspectives. The woman in this card is blindfolded and bound, trapping her into thinking that she has no way out. However, if only she could remove the blindfold and change her thinking, she would see that she does indeed have options. So, the Eight of Swords suggests that you need to look at a difficult situation from a new angle. Draw upon your intellectual self and your emotional self to determine the best path forward, one that avoids any possible victimisation or restriction.

            The Eight of Swords is often a sign that it is best not to make any important decisions at this point because your thinking has been limited and constrained by self-imposed boundaries. You are struggling to see a situation for what it is and have been lead to believe certain things that may or may not be true. There are choices available but first you must be within the right mindset to know which option to choose. This means releasing the bindings and the blindfold to see the situation from a different, less imposing angle. There may also be too many ideas running through your head, thus it is best to wait until you feel more secure and certain about a situation before making important decisions and taking action.

            The woman in the Eight of Swords is often seen as powerless. She has surrendered her power to an unknown entity, thus rendering herself completely powerless. She has become the victim and is now waiting to be rescued. If you see part of this woman in yourself, then it is imperative you take back your power and personal accountability and open your eyes to the options that lie in front of you. The fact is that you do have options, even if you do not like those options. This is fine, so long as you accept that you do indeed have options and you do not have to be the victim here.

            The Eight of Swords portrays a dilemma whereby you are faced with the difficulty of a painful decision and you are at an impasse, uncertain of which way to go. However, what you may not realise is that the decision in the Eight is the result of our own actions. Despite the fact that you have boxed yourself into a corner, there is a way out. The solution is simply to deal with the situation in the most direct yet tactful manner possible, and face your choice with inner strength. It is time to be honest with yourself and others in order to be free of the burden of fear or guilt that is implied with the Eight of Swords.

            The Eight of Swords can indicate that your interests will be opposed by other people, and this may create restrictions to what it is you want to achieve. Take back your power and realise that you have options whether others oppose you or not. You do not have to be constrained by their way of thinking or their rules.

          • lazy_friend

            Dont like crowley? All your methods seem to be just like his. Seems like you have a negative self image, cut that out. Stop being so derivative, its not cool. If you had to get your self together before the spirits helped you, you would not need their help. You should seek some therapy before dealing with the occult. The secret knowledge just not choose you, you have to seek it. Stop smoking and acting like you know everything while hiding under the pretense of honesty and you might just actually gain some real occult faculties. First be a skeptic, question everything, then you have the right to believe. Dont be such a joke and emotional. We all heard this stuff before, be a man and contact the guardian angel, dont be scared, because now that you have touched on these concepts, they will be contacting you, regardless if you like it or not. You are better than these derivative experiences, go work on your music, there is still a lot of work to be done before you can sell it. The production needs more of your attention. If you are going to have an ego, you better back it up. http://www.hermetic.com. I don’t believe in Karma, I always get away.

          • Thad McKraken

            Haters gonna hate. That being said I know almost nothing about the Tarot and hopefully will be learning more about it in the coming years. As for Crowley, my methods are similar and because of that I can’t really talk about what I’m doing without bringing him up because that’s how people are going to understand it. Him and Spare. What I’m doing probably has more in common with Spare in all honesty.

            I mainly just find the guy’s personal life lame as fuck. Again, seemed to have no regard for how he treated people, especially the women was involved with. Died a penniless heroin addict. You can be a fan of someone’s work and not them personally.

          • http://disqus.com/ gadfly

            Seems like the both of you have ran off with Skippy and the black witch

  • http://www.facebook.com/chuk.vinson Chuk Vinson

    What rituals are you using?

    • Thad McKraken

      Basic Chaos Magick sigil stuff. Focusing intentions and using a combination of sex and weed to aid meditation.

      • Trevor Smith

        How, for you, do these entities compare with ones encountered on mushrooms or ayahuasca?

        • Thad McKraken

          Man, that is a great question and something I’ve been trying to suss out myself. I’ve never done Ayahuasca or DMT personally, but I get so out there on things like mushrooms and acid it’s unreal. Under those it’s like my world is completely invaded by rapidly mutating art, but it’s kind of like peering into the face of an alien higher intelligence.

          Then there’s the astral projection that I was into way before I started doing magick and which lead me to things like lucid dreaming. So what did the sex magick stuff do? Well, there’s the focus of intentions and sensation of increased coincidences in your life, like it’s suddenly art and makes way more sense. That’s the big thing. On top of that I’d definitely say an increased level of calculated weirdness in the hypnagogic state (which is when this all was happening). Strange because with me pot seems to deaden my dreams somewhat, but make the hypnagogic state hyper-intense. More research really needs to be done on pot aided meditation. When I saw Terrence Mckenna speak years ago, he went on and on about it.

  • Andrew

    I thought these beings were parasites. How do you know they’re telling you the truth?

    • Thad McKraken

      Truth is a human idea that refers to absolutes but that’s an amazing question. I don’t think there’s necessarily “truth” to anything I’m told. There is stimulus and response. “They” wanted me to write that. I did. Not at all what I was planning on for this week.

      • Andrew

        Is there anything “they” want you to not write?

        • Thad McKraken

          Personally, if I pick on something that’s a good omen or that I really want to happen, I never tell anyone about it until it does. Weird intuitive thing going on there. I think the universe is unpredictable and thrives on mystery and when you flat out say something is going to happen, you diminish the possibility that it will to a certain extent. This is probably on a more personal level.

      • Number Two

        Not necessarily. Objective Truth exists. You experience it every moment. Just because no word or statement or idea can absolutely explain it entirely doesn’t mean that there isn’t Truth; it just can’t be found in any religion, ideology, belief, law, opinion, map, model, technology, philosophy, practice, dogma, race, era (either long lost or imminent) or geographical location, but only through direct, personal experience (which relates to the idea of wholeness/connection which seems fundamentally different than yr white (remember white light happens to be a veil)”all is one” that seems dangerously homogenous)

  • http://2012diaries.blogspot.com/ tristan eldritch

    Just to play Devil’s Advocate, these are fairly standard ideas to readers of mystical, occult, or even scientific literature. You say “There are solutions to any potential mathematical or scientific quandary you might ever encounter. Got that?” How about asking “them” for a solution to a current mathematical or scientific quandary, rather than simply for ideas that are already available in a thousand books?

    • Thad McKraken

      Good call. I’m a writer, musician, and visual artist, not a scientist. As such, information about advanced scientific theories would probably mean next to nothing to me. I never made it past pre-calc in college. I could try though. Design a sigil, ask, and report back on what I come up with. More likely they’re going to give me info that’s useful to me and me, because that’s what I’m looking for.

      • Nonject

        Joining with Tristan in playing Devil, I’d like to point out the similarities of your post to Grant Morrison’s talk at Disinfocon (via the Disinfo TV DVD) specifically. Some of the more vitriolic replies called this post derivative and I’d have to agree. I’m not going to condemn you for that though. Rather, a few suggestions.

        Please try and remain skeptical. Ideas and experiences come to us from many places, and it’s not always simple to parse whether or not a voice is coming from the inside or the outside, whether it’s really Big Wisdom or some trite over-heard cliche that we latch onto at a desperate moment.

        Each idea has a history, and derives its identity from its difference from others. There is absolutely NOT one message “at one constant rhythm, at one constant pitch” that repeats itself across history and culture – rather, there are messages: plural, multiform, and very often contradictory. Among these, yes, yours has been one. But, honestly, it’s one that disappoints me. The assertion that all material is thought does nothing to counter the very real material inequality that exists in the world. The assertion that all time is one doesn’t detach us from the present, except in fantasy. And the assertion that we’re all one doesn’t counter the alienation and apathy that are coincident with being human. And, of course, I can’t leave out your reiterated revelation’s lack of effect on the tides of human cruelty, or its lack of effect on the horrific absurdity of the gap between what we desire and what actually occurs.

        Granting that you are having some very powerful experiences of communion or whatever, were I in your shoes I would take them to task for the aforementioned issues. They have about as terrible a track record as any other divine agency, imo. My suggestion is, if you ever get to the top of your strings, try holding whatever you find there responsible. Try playing Jesse Custer instead of King Mob.

        But before this (and this might seem un-related, but I promise in the long run it’s not) I suggest asking yourself whether you’re comfortable letting yourself be “compelled” to do anything – whether that be pursuing magick, or sprouting a mini-essay because “they” told you to – anything, really. And are you really comfortable letting someone/something decide what’s useful to you? What’s this whole adventure all about really? Giving up responsibility/control or gaining it?

  • Guest

    How can I communicate with these beings? It all seems very exciting and I’d like to experience something like that.

  • marssuit

    Sometimes i think the great universal struggle is the difference between remembering/ forgetting. Evolution or not. growing or not growing. knowing or not. The original sin was that of not yet understanding. So we must only try to continue to understand, as one.

  • Trevor Smith

    You might find this interesting http://disinfo.com/2012/12/opti-and-i-one-mans-experiences-with-a-hyperdimensional-creature/

    Also, your experience with the tentacled being sounds a lot like sleep paralysis. Do you have that often? Its a useful way to ‘astrally project’ and enter lucid dreams.

    • Thad McKraken

      I had actually already read that (it’s great) and yeah. Basically, sleep paralysis is the gateway to astral projection (which I can’t say I’ve really done, can’t honestly get past the sleep paralysis state). I taught myself how to do it by using Robert Monroe’s methods and even though I tried to shut that part of myself off, I couldn’t. Once I turned that part of myself off, I couldn’t turn it off. I was expecting spirits to start bonding with my spirit energy and controlling my dreams, but that’s what happened.

  • http://twitter.com/TedHeistman Ted Heistman

    I like how you called your HGA “Holy Guardian Bad Self.” If its not a total bad ass that does thing like exist outside of time, it must not be your HGA!

    So that was cool.

    • Thad McKraken

      Thanks Ted. Keep up your psi work. It works!

  • Polybius

    What is the easiest way to create a connection with those beings? I would kill to experience something like this…

    • Thad McKraken

      Basic sigil projection stuff. Read up on Chaos Magick. Liber Null/Psychonaut would be a good jumping in point. Might do a sigil tutorial coming up here soon to help out. Go watch Grant Morrison’s legendary speech at Disinfo.con 2000. Another great jumping off point.

      • Thad McKraken

        Oh, Liber Null/Psychonaut is by Peter Caroll if you’re looking.

  • Thad McKraken

    See above. Think I covered it. Great inquiry though.

  • Thad McKraken

    I see what you’re saying. The all one thing is also a little odd, because what I was shown is that we’re all one, but that my HGA exists outside of that. Mind Bending. My work is actually trying to point out a bit of objectivity. R.A.W. did these things, this type of shit happened. Grant did these things, this type of shit happened. I’ve replicated their work.

  • Thad McKraken

    All consciousness is part of a continuum. If I’m not wrong, when Grant gave his speech at disinfo.con, wasn’t a big part of that speech imploring others to try what he had tried? He even said something to the effect of, I’m not a scientist, I didn’t go to college, but my understanding of science has to do with repeat-ability.

    He was imploring people to replicate the results, which is exactly what I did. If you’ll recall, he was also trying to replicate the results of people like Crowley and Robert Anton Wilson (is Robert Anton Wilson just talking crap?). In Cosmic Trigger, Wilson gave a list of people that said if you do these things, beings will show up and their message will have something to do with the nature of time and a bunch of stories throughout history to that effect. The fact that the results and message are similar is EXACTLY THE POINT. I’m not making this up. Did you try what he suggested? Why not?

    As for the skepticism angle. After I started fooling around with astral projection, I had experiences that were so odd I basically spent over 10 years pretending like it wasn’t happening so I could fit into society. This lead to great depression and unrest in me. I even wrote songs about it. Then I had this spirit awakening thing and that part of me just snapped. I decided to roll with it, and was unconsciously compelled to start doing magick. My life has improved exponentially since then. After I had my 100th psychic dream, should I have said, well, this isn’t happening because society doesn’t believe in it. Or should I have been a bit more rational and come to the conclusion that society is full of shit in regards to matters such as these. Should also be noted that this was just one thing that happened to me, and this kind of stuff happens to me all the time. Wouldn’t have even written about it if “They/Me” wouldn’t have told me/them to.

  • http://disqus.com/ gadfly

    Y’all need a learning in the way of the North.

  • lazy_friend

    I agree on the vitriol. I don’t know, I just get ticked off at the blatant derivation of material. Its like what I did in science class in middle school. Pretty much just printed from the encyclopedia changing a few words to get closer to my writing skill level. I wish he would write about a new method of casting, like high fiveing strangers while having a sigil drawn on your hand. Or paying with a Canadian quarter and every time someone notices you think of the sigil. Something with style, instead of just rewriting something and placing a link to buy rock music with lack of production for 5 bucks a pop, which is also derivative. I was hoping for some tripped out noise tracks, good for meditation. I guess I am just disappointed. I love to see topics on magick here, but when its a charlatan that does not even know anything about the tarot, one of the occults most basic learning tools and one of its most crucial, it raises all sorts of red flags. But I don’t like being caustic anymore, it shows insecurity and weakness, and those are qualities I prefer not to have. I am just going to ignore his posts and magickaly whisk him/her/it away from here.

    • Nikolas Jon Southwell

      Since your so wise and knowing oh great one, here’s a plan, why don’t you try writing your own blog/articles? Then you can educate us poor fools with your wonderful wisdom, rather than just trolling someone else’s article.