What I’ve learned as a Freemason and why I left the order

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I joined Freemasonry out of a deep-seated yearning for truth and mystery. That yearning is something some people are just born with and others aren’t. Personally, I had a hunch that the allegories of Freemasonry were based on ancient astrolatry, not to be confused with astrology[1]. In other words, the allegories of Freemasonry are a play on the ancient mysteries about light (the sun) overcoming darkness.[2] I couldn’t just read and wonder about it, though. I wanted to confirm it for myself by becoming a Freemason. After years of studying it and becoming a 32° Mason, I’m comfortable asserting that to be true and feel that I’ve confirmed my hunch.

What I’ve learned.

There are allegories embedded within the religions of the world and Freemasonry describes them. [3] These allegories describe scientific truths and philosophic concepts and don’t fall within the realm of occult pseudoscience or superstition. The craft of Freemasonry is, therefore, a historical and scientific inference rather than a cult or religion. This is why Freemasonry asserts that it’s a “progressive science” and accepts people of all religions while claiming that it is not a religion itself.

Is there a conspiracy?

A handful of misconceptions, scandals, and hoaxes have made people suspicious of Freemasonry. Consequently, a lot of conspiracy theories have grown around that suspicion. From everything I’ve witnessed as a Freemason, there is no grand conspiracy, though. The whole notion that the so-called “Illuminati” or Freemasons are behind everything is absurd and intellectually lazy. Life isn’t that simple and corruption of the heart and mind aren’t exclusive to any one institution but are simply a part of humanity. Freemasonry is just a fraternity and it’s best suited for nerds, not evil doers. If you’re looking for evil doers, investigate the misconduct of corporations and the military-industrial complex.

Are there any secrets?

Hundreds of years ago, Freemasonry was secretive out of a necessity to avoid persecution and therefore, contained secrets relative to its potential persecution. In today’s world, Freemasonry doesn’t really have any secrets. There are some things you won’t find online, but there aren’t any real secrets. In fact, I believe Morals & Dogma by Albert Pike and Stellar Theology & Masonic Astronomy by Robert Hewitt Brown cover most of it. Those two books describe practically everything there is to know about the esoteric side of Freemasonry.

Why I left Freemasonry.

I left Freemasonry because it’s an outdated order and it’s long overdue for serious changes. Hundreds of years ago the teachings of Freemasonry were revolutionary and progressive, but today they’re far from it. In fact, you could argue that many of the regulations are counter-productive to progression and equality. For example, women still aren’t allowed in Blue Lodge Freemasonry and in many areas, neither are African Americans. As someone who’s taken a personal oath to truth and reason, I can’t condone such regulations. Of course, Freemasonry isn’t an intentionally racist or sexist institution, but it’s behind on the times and that’s the problem.

The problem with Freemasonry.

Long gone are the days of famous Freemasons such as Benjamin Franklin, Simón Bolívar, Mark Twain, Oscar Wilde, Andrew Jackson, Voltaire, Winston Churchill, George Washington, etc. The authoritative figures of Freemasonry aren’t visionaries and revolutionaries anymore. In fact, Freemasonry itself has become dogmatic and isn’t evolving, at all. It’s not involved with the future of technology and the sciences either, so it’s not particularly attractive to progressives and intellectuals. If Freemasonry had lived up to its glory, its lodges would be full of famous scientists, inventors, and visionaries. Instead, its lodges are declining in membership and falling apart.

The fate of Freemasonry.

Things survive by necessity and there simply isn’t any necessity for Freemasonry. Besides charity contributions, Freemasonry isn’t contributing anything to modern society and is, therefore, unnecessary. Unless the authoritative figures of Freemasonry open the floodgates for change, Freemasonry is done for. The only way Freemasonry will survive is if it becomes deeply involved in the future of technology and the sciences. As a Freemason, you’re actually told to study the sciences, but most Freemasons don’t even study Freemasonry, let alone the sciences. In fact, the reason Morals & Dogma was replaced by A Bridge to Light was because it was deemed a “tough” read and the majority of candidates couldn’t comprehend its complexity.[4] The acceptance of such embarrassingly low standards is why Freemasonry has fallen from its former glory. Until it opens itself to change, it’s doomed to fail. As someone who once loved and admired the craft, that’s disappointing to admit.


1. Rex. R. Hutchens., A Bridge to Light, pg. 77
2. Ibid., pg. 198
3. Ibid., pg. 224
4. Ibid., pg. ix

Sammy R. LaPoint

Writer and researcher. Currently writing and editing for mmalatestnews.com and owner of occultum.net.